Thursday, October 25, 2012

Hi God, it's me again, breathing deeply

Hi God, it's me again.

I'm having a hard time with all this and wanted to let you know I'm really trying to relax but my body seems to work in auto pilot.

I keep finding myself with my heart pounding too hard and I'm breathing funny. Can a heart really break? I'm teary eyed and shaky. So I breathe deeply and look to You. Your picture is on my desk and it's like You are looking right at me. But then that makes me cry more. So I close my eyes and breathe deeply and immediately I feel my headache ease. Maybe some yoga? A fatal heart attack would be good. When's the last time you had someone ask for that?

Are you sure you have the right person for this job? After the sermon last weekend I know you have me picked for this but how can I be calm and relaxed?

I'm looking to You, and leaning on You and trusting You just like I'm suppose to. And breathing deeply.

1 comment:

  1. my heart is breaking for you....keep your faith. I pray that the devil leaves you alone. So weird you would wish for a heart attach. I thought I would have one for a while there. I was just thinking the other day. Isn't it awesome that years ago we went through something simular....then God brought us together, to help each other heal from it, and now we are in simuliar situations and leaning again on each other and God. I hope you know what I mean. God Bless you Denise, where one or more are gathered in prayer. Just like when we were little and we prayed so far away yet so near to God. Love you!