Hi God, it's me again. I was thinking what a great witness it would be to our non-believing family and friends if you healed Steven. We know the only way for this to happen is with you. Wow, imagine! Just something for you to think about.
Thanks for Steven and I talking last night about things. You know how much I've worried. And I had lots of prayer for this conversation so I give you all the credit. It was very cool how calm we both were. You would have thought we were discussing a a list of everyday things instead of end of life issues.
What I am rehashing is the emotional things rather than the facts of what needs to be done. Things like 'he is not going down without a fight'. And when I asked what I could be doing that I'm not doing his answer was, "If this is all the time we have I want us to be happy". I guess I haven't been happy lately. You know all about that business.
His quote that 'none of us are getting out of here alive', made me laugh at the simplicity of death and is a remainder that we are all getting closer to our turn.
The best part was him saying that this had to be really hard on me. He knew if it was the other way around it would be devastating for him. I wish it was the other way around. But for whatever reason you want it this way and there is no sense arguing about it.
It was exciting to talk about maybe going somewhere warm to fish some more. If it would be possible. I'd like to see someone stand in my way. I will go in debt and give up my job rather than miss one last trip. I'm counting on you God to to pave the way.