One of the things that scare me the most is how I fall apart when he's hurting. It just breaks my heart. And I don't know how I will be able to see him really hurting and hold it together enough to say the right things, do the right things.
I'm failing at this. I'm...not sure what he needs. Nothing I say is right, it all irritates him. I know it's not me, he feels crappy. I want to scream, "Give this guy a break!" I want to scream and scream and scream. I want to scream. First I want to sleep.