Every once in a while one of us will have this far away look in their eye, totally in another place. Normally, you would ask your spouse, "Hey, where are you?" But not us. We know where the other is, and we just wait for them to come back.
I know our every waking moment is shadowed with this cancer. Yet, nothing is said about it. I'm a typical woman when it comes to talking about things every which way to Sunday but not about the cancer. It's out of respect for him that I let him make all the rules. I am in a turmoil of uncertainty but would rather have that then make him answer questions he doesn't want to think about. I hope I don't regret this later. It could be really bad.