Occasionally, I see a look on Steve's face that says, this is only going to get worse, not better. I know God can heal him, but I don't know that Steve has much hope in that happening. I wonder sometimes, if we are being taught a lesson through all this why such big guns are needed.
I don't know where Steve's head is, because he doesn't talk about any end of life issues or what may happen between now and then. He is carrying a heavy load right now and it has made him sad and angry. I think if he were better with this, I would be too. But this needs to be about Steven and what can make this easier for him, so I don't push.
There is not a book out there that explains how to be a caregiver to a terminally ill husband who is not talking. I guess I just keep loving on him.