God's greatest life messages come out of our deepest hurts. I can't make the doctor tell us how much longer until he is better. I can't get healing for him from anyone. But, my dependency on God has become my life line. I read now with fervor and a hunger I've never had. I'm desperate for whatever He can give me for that day's peace.
Being in anguish opens the pores of your soul. Your senses are more keen, feelings are raw. Steve and I linger on each word the other says, with our eyes saying the words we dare not speak.
So far, I feel like I've done well. But I've moved into a new phase of tearing up at everything. It's okay, I know. I'm not hiding them anymore from anyone. But, I can't be crying while grocery shopping or driving John Deere road. And what is it about the shower that brings me to tears? Is it because I'm wet already?