Tuesday, June 25, 2013

When He Hurts, I Hurt

When he hurts, I hurt. It makes me cry seeing he face screwed up in pain. I see his abdomen get bigger and can't imagine what the cancer in his liver is doing. I realized the extent of his frailness when bathing him hurt his skin. I don't know how he could get thinner than he is. Yet, he has decided to tone up his arms and wanted the hand weights. He counts how many times he gets up and walks. This man of mine is not going to lie in bed and take what comes.

When he sleeps, I sleep. We are up several times a night. Sometimes, I move into the spare room to give him the whole bed to try and find a way to ease the pain in his abdomen and his back. Then we cat nap 3-4 times during the day. I'm so blessed with the ability to lay my head anywhere, take 7 breaths and be out. Steve calls me a professional sleeper.

When he dies, I will die. I will go to bed and cover my head and will myself to die. Couples have been known to do that. I know I'm not as elderly as most who accomplish this, but I'll therefore have more brain cells to work with.

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness...
Lamentations 3:22-23

6 comments:

  1. I love you friend. Praying you through your storm.

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  2. I love you Denice...you are such a great woman who has such a great heart....I've known this at such an early age in my life and now that I am a mother, I appreciate all the influence you had in my life. I love you more than words will ever tell...I pray that I am half the woman you are.

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    1. Lisa I learned just as much as you in those early years. I was 18 years old when I became your step-momma. I pray blessings over your new adventure.

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  3. Praying for you all denice. I wish I could ease your pain.
    Nancy

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  4. Your are a wonderful woman of strength Denice, we are praying for all of you.

    Lorraine

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    1. Thank you Lorraine. And thanks for the wonderful dinner you made and delivered! Hard to believe after all the 'girlhood' hardships we went through, you now are there for me in the adult ones.

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