It's hard to believe 10 days have gone by since Steven passed away. I have experienced so many emotions. A lot of the time I feel nauseated. I could sleep at any time but still feel tired and lethargic. One of the many things that surprised me was my need to be home. I thought after having to be here and not able to leave when Steve was so sick, that I would fly out the door everyday. I'd take back the returns I have and get some much needed shopping done. But, I'll be out and have an overwhelming desire to be home. I'll have to leave immediately and feel comfort as soon as I walk in the door.
My obsession with having my cell phone on my person at all times has changed. Oh heck, my whole life and way of thinking have changed. Life is askew. I've been told there is a shock period after something like this before reality sets in. I can't wait to see what today brings.