Tuesday, November 19, 2013

The 20th

As the 20th of each month approaches, I am reminded of how long it has been since Steven passed away. November will be the 4th month.

It seems like everything has changed since July 20th. The house looks different, the season has changed and of course I am a different person.

What if on the 20th, I didn't think of his last day of life? Or, how overwhelming my feelings sometimes get? What if I didn't spend each monthly anniversary quiet and retrospective? What if...I celebrate that day each month, as a marker for how long Steven has been in heaven? Total, all consuming joy is something we will not experience this side of heaven, but Steven has this. He has had this for 4 months. Hallelujah.

3 comments:

  1. Literal gooosebumps. I like that much better Denice!
    I can only imagine ... what God has him busy doing. I can see his great big smile so vividly.
    Changing season.

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  2. Literal gooosebumps. I like that much better Denice!
    I can only imagine ... what God has him busy doing. I can see his great big smile so vividly.
    Changing season.

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  3. Now that is what sounds right celebrating that he is in Heaven and you will one day be with him again. Praise God for that!

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