Sunday, March 30, 2014
What I noticed this fast, was my boldness in coming to God. Inside my head I'm thinking how I'm really depriving myself for the sake of obedience and by golly, I should probably get what I want. Now, what is ironic about this is that I'm to come boldly to God in just this way anytime, not just during a fast. If I'm in line with what He wants the 'by golly' should be there in any bold request.
And since God didn't answer my prayer repeated several times to cure Steven, I should have a warehouse of favors just waiting to be asked for. I know it doesn't work this way, but I'm only human and forget God doesn't play by the same rules.
So the fasting seems to be for me too. It makes my thoughts process thru a filter of wants but can't haves. And to think, I'm only through day one.
From basement walls that have cracks to gutters that spill over, from an attic that needs more insulation to a furnace that needs cleaned. Then there are the vehicles, tractors, and the yard itself which has a steep ravine in back. There is a drip under the sink and some insulation around the sliding glass door to replace. I know the wiring is old and there is an additional water shut off that is almost impossible to budge open or closed. There are receding sidewalks and the deck is moving away from the house. The garage needs organizing but I'm not sure what anything is. I bought a stud finder to hang some things on the walls of the garage but I'm not sure where to put things. There are a couple oak trees that need to go but I can wait on those, unless a strong wind blew one down and it crashes into the house that I've taken all this time to keep up on. Maybe I should tackle the trees first. A couple bushes and vines are dead, and there is a rhododendron that is almost as tall as the house that needs pruning. Steve will have a cow in heaven if I touch it but it's an eye sore 50 weeks out of the year when not in bloom. Maybe God can have him at harp practice that day. Oh gosh, that tickled me. Steven playing the harp!
Friday, March 28, 2014
This reminds me of wedding vows, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to have and to hold, from this day forward until death do we part. Well, we certainly did that.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Our kids mean everything to us. This doesn't get any easier as they grow into adulthood. We as parents just have less influence. In fact, I think there is more to be concerned about. There are the people they share their lives with and the next generation of children they have to add to our list of concerns.
While I'm glad I can 'give' all this concern to God and know that whatever happens is being orcherstrated, I wish I knew that they were praying too. This is where I stand in the gap for them. We can only do so much. I'm thankful I raised two wonderful sons and gave them good roots that are always there to draw from.
Saturday, March 15, 2014
I'm in this position too, and as liberating as it feels, it sounds...selfish. I have not been in this 'only me' state since forever. I went from home to husband to children and now, they have all gone on to live under their own umbrella.
So what if I turned the 'time to make ME happy' into 'what would make God happy?' I have so much time to talk to God now. There are some would say that I'm going back to holding an umbrella over someone's head, but it doesn't work that way with God. I know that if I make Him happy, I'm going to be filled with a joy that is unobtainable from any other source.
Step one today, find out what makes God happy. Journal about it, pray about it, and of course blog about it.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
I want to delete it, but I can't. When all you have are small, little snippets, you keep every one.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
But what really helps is knowing what IS after this life is over. I am heir to the kingdom. I am a daughter to the King. So I endure, because eternity in a kingdom is worth my momentary trials.
Saturday, March 8, 2014
I love visualizing Jesus standing at the door to our heart knocking. To open the door is step one. To invite Him in will be the best decision of you life. How good it is to not fear death, knowing that at that moment 'real' life begins.