I hadn't realized the extent I relied on Steven to talk me back up when I had self doubts. Having to do this on my own makes me feel like I'm having a conversation...with myself.
"Should I have said that differently?" , "Duh"
"I hope my face didn't show what I really thought" , "Gee, maybe she wasn't looking at you just then."
"Why the heck did I wear this?" "Because once again you didn't think!"
I don't really lack confidence, unless I listen to myself.