I got out my old journals to see what was going on in my life. In my 2001 journal I was studying the Book of Jabez. I was asking God to allow me to touch other lives in a way that glorified Him. I ask for opportunity and the drive to speak publicly. I prayed for God to send me someone who needed me so I could do His work on earth. Boy, did he answer that one.
He gave me someone who needed me to help him fight his terminal cancer while be in acceptance of his absolute silence about his situation. This blog served as my podium for public speaking. I poured my soul and prayers out to total strangers and like to think from the comments I received that I impacted a few people.
But I also made stupid mistakes during that time that impacted my life in big ways. I not only lost a husband in that year of suffering, but became estranged from a friend I had had for 30 years. That was a big life changer too. After all, who do you turn to when your husband is dying but your best friend? And then I needed to find someone to turn to about losing her. Never underestimate the power of God, new friends and counseling! The hands on the clock keep turning and while in the good years you think you could never live without someone, in time you find you can.